DAILY MAIL 'Cancer can be treated. No one can bring back a baby'

And she took over as CEO two years ago when the founder Sophia Mason took as step back from the day-to-day running of the charity. 

'I’ve spent the last four years telling women if they notice any change in their baby’s movements to call their midwife immediately. Prompt action is key and can save lives. 

'So when I found a lump in my breast, while scratching my armpit - so glamorous - I took my own advice and was at the GPs within 12 hours.'

In the next weeks she had a scan and a mammogram, which showed up four lumps in her breast. 

It turned out two of the lumps in her right breast were cancerous. As lobular cancer is very hard to detect, she was advised to have a double mastectomy as it might be hard to spot if it developed in her other breast.  

Lobular cancer has started in the cells that line the lobules, or milk glands, of the breasts and spread to the surrounding tissue.

She explained she had cancer to Emily and helped Joshua to understand with a book called 'Mummy's Lump'. 

'We sat down together and read it and I explained this is like us. I showed him how we were the characters in the story and that the lady was the same as mummy,' she said.

'He would gently rub my arm at the parts that Mummy was sick. When we finished he wanted to read it again and again.

'I think he got what was going on at the level I wanted him to. That he knew I’d be sick and wouldn’t be able to play but without the gravity that we adults have towards cancer.'

She's also taken the children on a 'cancermoon' to CBeebies Land at Alton Towers so they could enjoy some quality family time before her treatment begins in the coming weeks. 

And she's had her hair cut by celebrity hairdresser Lee Stafford in preparation for chemo. 

She is planning to opt for cold cap treatment, freezing her hair follicles to limit the amount of chemo drugs that will reach them in the hope of keeping her hair. 

Despite her positive attitude, the enormity of what she's facing hit Elizabeth when she saw the surgeon who would be performing the mastectomy and reconstruction.

'I went alone. Bad bad idea. However strong you think you are, turns out there are some things you just shouldn’t do alone,' she explained. 

'I went in feeling positive but every mention of the word cancer, complications, chemotherapy, radiotherapy, reconstruction seemed to batter me a little bit more. And they were mentioned  a lot.

'My amazing breast care nurse could see I was struggling. She put her arm around me and lead me to another room.

When we were there I started to go into shock and started vomiting. After everything had come up I was in pain. I'm sure we’ve all had that experience. 

'You have nothing left so you are going through the motions but it just hurts.'

But she would still rather endure the difficult battle ahead than the pain of losing her son Toby who died because her placenta had an abnormality, causing severe anemia.

Elizabeth was 21 weeks pregnant when she went to hospital after becoming concerned the baby wasn't moving. 

'Laying there thinking my son was dead, thinking the sonographer was going to tell me he had gone I just felt pain,' she recalled. 

'Then she turned the screen away from me and said “I’m so sorry, there’s no heartbeat”. In that second what I thought was rock bottom suddenly crumbled away. 

'I fell into a whole world of pain I just couldn’t have imagined, even when I knew in my heart he had gone. They spoke to me about the birth, about holding him, about taking photos. 

'I didn’t hear a word. I was just trying to take breaths, trying to get through each second.

'In hindsight I can only assume its nature's way of protecting you. Like there is no way to feel that kind of pain unless you absolutely have to.'

Elizabeth credits her work with Kicks Count with helping her to come to terms with the loss of her son, and she says she would not change the past. 

'If someone offered me the chance to do my life all over again, but to not get pregnant with Toby and avoid all the heartache and pain, I’d say absolutely no way,' she explained.

'I wouldn’t change a thing. Losing Toby was horrendous, but so much good has come out of it. 

'If I hadn’t lost Toby I would never have started volunteering for and then becoming CEO of Kicks Count. I wouldn’t have felt so compelled to stop others feeling such heartache. 

'Finding Kicks Count gave me a purpose. It gave me something to really fight for. It gave me my passion in life. The passion that no one else should go through that kind of heartache when so many can be prevented. 

'People sometimes say, “if it saves one life it will be worth it.” I don’t agree. If it saves one life, why couldn’t it have been my son? I need it to save hundreds even thousands of lives. I need it to make a huge difference.'

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